This may not be your thing at all, but I find yoga works for me a lot. I have no interest about opening my mind to shit or being spiritual about things. But I found two things: it is the only thing, aside from very strong painkillers that end up with making me cough up blood (so i don't take them), that manages to relieve my back. I'm completely pain free. I've grown up too fast (though not that much :/), and that left me with a weak lumbar region and odd knees. Also, it makes me feel more energized and relaxed in my body. I find, aside from any spiritual thing, that it's the only moment when I can not think. At all. And I'm aware of my body (which, tbh, I tend to neglect A LOT, since I don't like it that much), I connect with it and I focus on what I'm doing. It's not an effort, it's a pleasure.
Two: When I haven't done yoga in a week, I start to feel angsty and itch for it. That's when I realize how it helps me to get emotional balance as well.
So... it may help you too?

How do you define gender queer, I'm curious. I've never met anyone that said that. I've met girls that defined themselves as girls and were, even though they were born as men, once upon a time. I know trans, but... queer, I never though to put it into 'gender', more in "way I am", I guess?

Side note: I hate Mac too. Not that I think they're bad, but I'm a PC girl, and they just confuse the fuck outta me.

As usual. I'm here if you need me.