Wtf: I'm caught in a "poor me" moment...

[black_sluggard]

This is me being childish and whiny. Really, you're probably better off skipping this.

I want to start this out by saying that I'm aware of how pathetic this is. And petty, and stupid. But I've been depressed as hell lately, because I've been getting a ton of stuff written (which basically usually results in the opposite of depressed), and I don't feel like anyone's been reading my fics. T_T

It's one of those things where logical thought doesn't really fix the problem. Because I know that a. the pairing that I write for is kind of marginal on its own, b. while I write prolifically within that marginal pairing, my stories are often painfully off-genre for the fandom, and c. most of the friends/commenters I've been missing are busy with real life stuff that I'm actually perfectly aware of.

Still, it's just frustrating seeing a new writer enter the fandom and get comments from people I haven't heard from in over a year because *gasp* they manage to write Castle stories without werewolves/zombies/aliens/Nazis/angels/timetravel in them.

In other words, yes, this is me being totally jealous of another writer and not even trying to hide it.

*sigh*

(Though really I'm totally jazzed that there's another voice for the pairing now, because seriously, Kevin and Javier need it.)

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[game-byrd.livejournal.com]

Oh, also want to say that there don't seem to be a lot of active commenters around anymore, regardless. I posted some Star Trek fic to all the Trek comms a month ago or so and while I got some responses, it wasn't many. Has everyone migrated off to other fandoms? Or to another platform altogether? I've been getting a handful of kudos and stuff from AO3 in the last month for some reason, and people have to seriously look for my fic over there because it's been forever since I posted it there and that means it gets buried in their system.

Maybe LJ just isn't where it's at anymore?

[black_sluggard]

Yeah, I honestly have no idea. Ryan/Esposito is where my heart lies, and I'm probably never going to be able to get away from the pairing entirely. But I posted a Hawaii Five-0 fic a while back and got a huge amount of response on it. I think it really is a per-fandom thing. The longer a show is around, the less enthusiasm there is in general maybe? There was a lot more feedback for Castle once upon a time, or at least for my little neck of the fandom. But the characters I favor are supporting characters in a show heavily focused on the hook-up-already shenanigans of the leading pair, in a fandom heavily biased toward het.

Plus, in canon, one of half of the pairing has been married off in a weak side plot (to a character played by the actors RL wife...ugh) and the other has been shuffled into an equally weak will-they-or-won't-they (though really should they?) romantic subplot where they're dubiously paired with another acceptably ethnic supporting character...I'm convinced simply because she was there.